first and foremost, i would like to credit both Mohd Rased bin Haji Said and Maimunah bte Haji Azis for bringing me into this world. 9 months and a few days. yes. thats a long time for someone to be carrying me in her womb. suffering. anxiety attack. yes. all that shits. thanx. for sticking through the bad and good. mom and dad. you are heaven-blessed.
i wore glasses since i was 9. 1995. yes. that was the year i got my first pair. i can't seem to remember the description. most probably gold rimmed. yes. i had class. had. before. not now. now i just settle for anything. anything that suits my face. yes. i'm ironic. and pretty contradictory at times. i can never settle for second best. i always never backs down without a fight. yes. i hate to lose. but if i have to, i would graciously step down. there you go. my ironicite is acting up. i know.
music wise. im pretty incline. yes. i can sing. i can dance. i can play instruments. though i'm a Jack of all trade, i'm not really that good. on an average level. i love to groove. alot. yes. but not always. and damn. i love to irritate my pals with my singing. its not really good and at times, pisses them off. yes. i'm Star's annoying voice. sarcasm use to be in my blood. have the tendency to just dish it out. anyone. anywhere. yes. cruel to the eye.
i hate my feelings. yes. them. that mix reaction. an attack of anxiety. the sad. the happy. the downright feeling of swimming in a pool of mud. nah. shit. dungs. yes. hate it. will come anytime. and it scares me. yes. cause i won't be sure of it. if i think i'm sad, i will not be. if i think i'm happy, i will not be. not be. will not be. contradiction. at times i just forget about it. yes. being ignorant. i know some people tend to have this philosophy. ignorance is bliss. i tried applying them. what does it do? zilch. nothing. yes. nothing. cause i'm drawn to it. yes. im a drawer. i love to eat that apple. that forbidden fruit we call temptation. at times i'm successful. yes. but most of the time? correct. one minute i'm telling myself no. and the next. what did i do? peeling off the skin.
i love to sleep. yes. anytime. anywhere. if i'm comfortable where i am. that's my mat. sleeping mat. to doze and in la la land. yes. i love it. my pals hate it. especially during the movies. yes, ladies and gentlemen. i slept in the cinema. no use hiding the fact. think about it. dark place. cooling atmosphere. no one to disturb. good movie. perfect. yes. the last few movies. with my friends. even with a girl beside me. i would just rest my elbow on the resting pad and with my palm on my cheek. i purchase the ticket. the announcement on the air. "All aboard! Next stop: La La Land!" take me away.

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Saturday, January 01, 2005

finally, after 366 days, we bade farewell to a glorious 2004. i have this feeling that 2004 really makes me mature as a person after all the incidents that had happened. i realised that the ones you love may leave you unexpectedly. cherish the moments you had. the loved one may be your girlfriend or boyfriend. a relative. or maybe. just maybe. a parent. i can assure that cos i lost my mom. yeap. may she rest in peace.

rewind back to February when i got my result for O level. oh man. it was kinda shocking actually. i didn't expect my Science to pass. i was just hoping that i can make it to the next step. Polytechnic. haha. fuhyoh! i got C6. thank GOD!!! nearly shout sak! damn happy. i noe wat some of you might say. the result is not good. but hey, FUCK YOU! at least i pass! haha. and i will move on to go to Nanyang Polytechnic, taking Multimedia Infocomm Technology. i thought the course was easy. untill i met Java Programming.

haha. it really threw me off-balance. the complicated syntax and repetition use of public shyt really got me squeezing my brain juice for that solution. argh!!! haha. oh well. met a lot of new friends there. but the three guys that bonded with me are non-other than Bil, Hul and Flint. my brudders. haha. we shared alot of cherish moments together and the bond between us just got tighter as each day passes by.

Hul, the resourceful one. i admire how he got people's attention with his resourceful knowledge and that funny giggle of his. haha. he loves his headphones to the max and i can assure you that he took care of it more than he does his health. haha. what with his current sinus problem. get well soon! Bil, the smooth guy with the fastest fingers. he plays the guitar wonderfully. and i am glad that i have him as a friend. haha. always joking around with him and we exchange lots of crappy jokes and anecdotes. a lively fellow who will not disappoint his fellow friends. Flint, the zany one of the bunch. he is the lead guitarist of his own band, Bismuth. he is the guy who introduced me to Muse. i really can't thank this guy enough for his gracious enlightenment on me. i really have seen the light. haha.

i got to know this one girl who eventually came to be my girlfriend. it was unintended. i didn't actually wanted a girlfriend. it is totally out of my thought after what had happened earlier. so there i am. falling oh so gracefully in love with her after one week of contact. i don't really call it love. infatuation, that is. but as the day went by, i realised that i am attracted to her more and more. if i can't see her for a few days, i will get real worried. man, thats how much i care for her. and i only just met her. haha. but hey, its been going well between us for the past 14 weeks.

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION:
-pass all my modules
-calm myself down more
-learn to be more focus on important stuffs
-not get distracted easily
-love Nur Hidayah for another year


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