first and foremost, i would like to credit both Mohd Rased bin Haji Said and Maimunah bte Haji Azis for bringing me into this world. 9 months and a few days. yes. thats a long time for someone to be carrying me in her womb. suffering. anxiety attack. yes. all that shits. thanx. for sticking through the bad and good. mom and dad. you are heaven-blessed.
i wore glasses since i was 9. 1995. yes. that was the year i got my first pair. i can't seem to remember the description. most probably gold rimmed. yes. i had class. had. before. not now. now i just settle for anything. anything that suits my face. yes. i'm ironic. and pretty contradictory at times. i can never settle for second best. i always never backs down without a fight. yes. i hate to lose. but if i have to, i would graciously step down. there you go. my ironicite is acting up. i know.
music wise. im pretty incline. yes. i can sing. i can dance. i can play instruments. though i'm a Jack of all trade, i'm not really that good. on an average level. i love to groove. alot. yes. but not always. and damn. i love to irritate my pals with my singing. its not really good and at times, pisses them off. yes. i'm Star's annoying voice. sarcasm use to be in my blood. have the tendency to just dish it out. anyone. anywhere. yes. cruel to the eye.
i hate my feelings. yes. them. that mix reaction. an attack of anxiety. the sad. the happy. the downright feeling of swimming in a pool of mud. nah. shit. dungs. yes. hate it. will come anytime. and it scares me. yes. cause i won't be sure of it. if i think i'm sad, i will not be. if i think i'm happy, i will not be. not be. will not be. contradiction. at times i just forget about it. yes. being ignorant. i know some people tend to have this philosophy. ignorance is bliss. i tried applying them. what does it do? zilch. nothing. yes. nothing. cause i'm drawn to it. yes. im a drawer. i love to eat that apple. that forbidden fruit we call temptation. at times i'm successful. yes. but most of the time? correct. one minute i'm telling myself no. and the next. what did i do? peeling off the skin.
i love to sleep. yes. anytime. anywhere. if i'm comfortable where i am. that's my mat. sleeping mat. to doze and in la la land. yes. i love it. my pals hate it. especially during the movies. yes, ladies and gentlemen. i slept in the cinema. no use hiding the fact. think about it. dark place. cooling atmosphere. no one to disturb. good movie. perfect. yes. the last few movies. with my friends. even with a girl beside me. i would just rest my elbow on the resting pad and with my palm on my cheek. i purchase the ticket. the announcement on the air. "All aboard! Next stop: La La Land!" take me away.

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Thursday, July 28, 2005

the tears you wept,
the pain you endure.
all the time,i hurt you more.

the scars that left,
slicing and dicing.
blade in my hand, stab on my wings.

this fear. erupts.
this wrath. boils up.
your pain. so deep.
this love. so real.

my heart, longs for you.
my heart, bleeds for you.

undo, this pain.
undo, this pain.
undo, this pain.
undo, this pain.....

so watcha think? nice verse eh? hehe. wrote it the night before. quite proud of it. but not complete yet. hmm. shld add more fear and pain to it. wat u guys think? :D.

now i am totally blur. should i? or must i cut my hair? i mean. it now begins to look nicer than i expected. damn! and i am contemplating on whether to cut or not. that is THE question! haiz. im just scared that it wont look nice. i mean. my face. argh! but i have been having bald haircut since i was 6 months. haha. must i really care? i got a cap. :D.

oh yeah. u guys should listen to Revenga and Radio/Video by System of a Down. hahaha. downright wonderful sak! i mean. totally brilliant. haha. *salute to SOAD*. go ahead and download it. you will know wat i mean. :P.

went jamming with my cousins minus Aby Noh. i dun really noe where that critter went. for all i noe, he have soccer practice or busy block-shopping. hmm. damn him. anyways, we played Needles first. quite atrocious actually cos it has been quite some time since i jam. and my drumming seems to be lost somewhere in the song. hahaha. but i make it up with Psycho. woohoo. it was smooth sailing. well, not untill the solo. Yahya couldn't nail it. hahahaha. guess he forgot about it at the end. ahax.

played New Born. i have to admit. wasn't one of my best performance so far that day. but did got that wee drum solo bit right before the eventual guitar solo. woohoo. finally, Yahya pulls it off with a bit of impromptu. nice. ahax. oh yah! before that. haha. Baem wanted to record his playing of the New Born intro on the keyboard itself and as it turns out, something weird came out. hahaha. trust me. you wouldn't wanna noe. ahahaha. :P. we did our own rendition of MCR's Helena. im proud of that song cos i manage to hit it with confidence. ahax. yeaps. me on drums, Yahya on guitar, Lok, Hak and Baem on the mikes, this is heaven for Helena. hahahaha. i tried playing guitar for Chop Suey! and exchange the drums with Yahya. hahaha. Baem, Lok, Hak try to sang it. but were laughing uncontrollably from the "Father! Father" bit. hahaha. it was hilarious to see Yahya do the gore with his voice. hahaha.

by far, the best song that we jam was Needles. that was part 2. it was incredible. trust me. im surprised myself. ;).

anyways, can't wait for the next jamming session. haha.

i dunnoe wat to get her. seriously. i have been wanting to buy this pair of couple's rings and have it engraved. mine would read, "Hidayah". and hers would read, "Mustafa". nice? hmm. still on the 1st draft of her gift. wat women wants? comments anyone?


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