first and foremost, i would like to credit both Mohd Rased bin Haji Said and Maimunah bte Haji Azis for bringing me into this world. 9 months and a few days. yes. thats a long time for someone to be carrying me in her womb. suffering. anxiety attack. yes. all that shits. thanx. for sticking through the bad and good. mom and dad. you are heaven-blessed.
i wore glasses since i was 9. 1995. yes. that was the year i got my first pair. i can't seem to remember the description. most probably gold rimmed. yes. i had class. had. before. not now. now i just settle for anything. anything that suits my face. yes. i'm ironic. and pretty contradictory at times. i can never settle for second best. i always never backs down without a fight. yes. i hate to lose. but if i have to, i would graciously step down. there you go. my ironicite is acting up. i know.
music wise. im pretty incline. yes. i can sing. i can dance. i can play instruments. though i'm a Jack of all trade, i'm not really that good. on an average level. i love to groove. alot. yes. but not always. and damn. i love to irritate my pals with my singing. its not really good and at times, pisses them off. yes. i'm Star's annoying voice. sarcasm use to be in my blood. have the tendency to just dish it out. anyone. anywhere. yes. cruel to the eye.
i hate my feelings. yes. them. that mix reaction. an attack of anxiety. the sad. the happy. the downright feeling of swimming in a pool of mud. nah. shit. dungs. yes. hate it. will come anytime. and it scares me. yes. cause i won't be sure of it. if i think i'm sad, i will not be. if i think i'm happy, i will not be. not be. will not be. contradiction. at times i just forget about it. yes. being ignorant. i know some people tend to have this philosophy. ignorance is bliss. i tried applying them. what does it do? zilch. nothing. yes. nothing. cause i'm drawn to it. yes. im a drawer. i love to eat that apple. that forbidden fruit we call temptation. at times i'm successful. yes. but most of the time? correct. one minute i'm telling myself no. and the next. what did i do? peeling off the skin.
i love to sleep. yes. anytime. anywhere. if i'm comfortable where i am. that's my mat. sleeping mat. to doze and in la la land. yes. i love it. my pals hate it. especially during the movies. yes, ladies and gentlemen. i slept in the cinema. no use hiding the fact. think about it. dark place. cooling atmosphere. no one to disturb. good movie. perfect. yes. the last few movies. with my friends. even with a girl beside me. i would just rest my elbow on the resting pad and with my palm on my cheek. i purchase the ticket. the announcement on the air. "All aboard! Next stop: La La Land!" take me away.

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Friday, August 04, 2006

i love my girlfriend.
i really do.

i have to admit.
there are times where i feel like putting my hands around my gf's neck.
and squeezing it tight.
real tight. squeezing the life out of her.

but not this time.

not this gf. hmm. wonder why.

and ya. gt a job at guardian fajar.

what else eh? hmm. seriously ah. im damn bored these days. haiz. all im looking forward is to meet my sayang. thats it. hmm. miss her a lot.

i conceived this story while watching a ghost story.

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i tremble as i began to make my way towards the bathroom. the morning breeze swept across the room as the sun began to rose steadily at a far distance. felt my head spin as i began to reach the bathroom. my visions became dark. i drop to the floor.

was really down on my luck when my gf left me for another guy. and its pretty disheartening to know that it was with my classmate. it pretty much messed up my perspective on everyone around me. not even my best friend gets away with it. but he was fine with it. though he wasn't really thrilled whenever i would look at him and question him for the slightest thing. overall he was a fine fella. with a knack of lighting up anything with his trusted zippo lighter.

it was one of those days where the pitter patter of the rain makes you want to sleep the whole day. but the day just started and stretching didn't help at all. look over at my best friend who was busy fiddling with his cell phone and grinning to himself. so there i was. resting my head on the table with my arms closing in on me. a knock was heard on the door. she walked in.


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