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Thursday, March 08, 2007
everything happens so fast. its like someone just push the fast forward button. press and hold. to the exact moment where they thought it is much sensible. how i wish i could do that in real life. pick up a device and points it and press that unearthly button. how ambitious. how horrible. how ridiculous. the fact that we all are mere actors in this stage of life goes to show how little power we have over the situations that unfolded. yes we have a say. yes we can argue all we want. but as soon as that clock strikes, or the time comes, or when the rooster cockles as a sign for a new day, the show will go on as He planned.
i am not being pessimistic or whatever. i have seen life. the beautiful side. the ugly side. the fucked up side. from different camera views. from different sets of opinions. trying to put myself in their shoes. his shoes. her shoes. see things her way. his way. my way. all ways. but the same scenario will be played all over again lest repeating the same mistakes. its genetics. in the genes, as they say. from our forefathers. from their fathers. and their fathers. in short, the apple doesnt fall that far from the tree.
while old habits die hard, new habits won't be around. its the same situation. you met a girl. you fall in love. you do the lovey dovey thing. promises after promises. how your life change considerably because of her. how you would do anything just to make her smile each day. just remembering those precious moments. that tingkling feeling deep in your stomach whenever you meet her. her smile. that twinkle in her eyes. the smell that never go bad. all of the stuffs she told u. all of the stuffs you told her. gone in a poof. zilch. done. but your heart still waits on her. every single day. waiting. yearning. that moment will come, you told yourself. she will realised how important i am to her. thats the ting. she will never do so. no matter how much you cry, wept, bled, sweat. nothing. old habits die hard.
*~__ Afa Romeo ___ ~*
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